Mixed emotions

[chaoswolf]

• I feel heartbroken because Panther broke up with me.
• I feel a little better that I've made peace and we are now on neutral terms.
• I'm curious about the future, optomistic I will get a second chance with her. I promised to lay off until Dec 9, (which is the day Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch & The Wardrobe comes into theaters) though I will actually approach her again on the 12th, which is the day before finals start.

I seriously love her, and I'm praying all will be forgiven and I get that 2nd chance. If I am not the one for her..Then it's not meant to be. I am 99.9% certain she is the one for me. I still need to post some pics of us as a couple, and we were a damned cute couple. All the StarPort denizens thought so, anyway. Hell, even I thought so. I am seriuosly in love with her. I just don't know what to do, except keep my thoughts to myself. I cannot express my feelings like I used to: flirting, hugging, kissing, using her as a pillow, and nipping. Not until...

Well, you get the idea. Anyways, went out with kalanasse and Chris last night/this morning to go see Harry Potter & The Goblet of Fire. It was a very well done movie. Emma Watson looks so hot in that dress...(and I can see Panther in it), and I want that boat.....My fav non-spoiler line in the whole movie: "I love magic." --- Harry Potter

Comments

[mdlbear]

Remember, she's a couple of years younger than you are, and has grown up in a very, um, sheltered environment. She may not have really figured out who she is yet. You might end up being "just friends". There are worse things.

I didn't start going out with your mother until I was 28.

[chaoswolf]

True, though I still have these sexual feelings for her. How can I express that if I'm on a "just friends" level?

[mdlbear]

Well, it's a bit of a balancing act. Basically you'd do whatever you would do if your friend was straight instead of bi, or attached to someone else and not poly. There are plenty of women I have sexual feelings for, but I'm not likely to have the opportunity to ever jump in bed with them, and they'd probably be appalled if they found out that I'd want to.

[chaoswolf]

It's just so much harder. I see her at school daily, and it's difficult for me to keep my paws to myself since I am so madly in love with her. Also the passion we shared prior to the breakup is still there, at least on my end. How the hell am I supposed to ignore this?

Ignore?

[katt1028.livejournal.com]

No, you don't ignore it.... you cherish he hapy dreams and you keep reminding yourself that you are friends.

It will take time, and your feelings will adjut to where they need to be. You were each in the others life for a reason.. and it may not be forever tpe of reason. Learn and grow from it... that is how you get through it.

One day at a time...

Re: Ignore?

[chaoswolf]

What do you mean "forever tpe" of reason? I love her. I'd do anything to get her back......And I haven't done anything extremely dumb yet, though it doesn't mean that thought hasn't crossed my mind a few times.

Re: Ignore?

[katt1028.livejournal.com]

sometimes, even when you feel in your heart right now, a person is not the one to be with forever. Sometimes there is a lesson to be gained on one side or the other.

yo're both still young and learning who you are... embrace that and keep building that friendship... t

Re: Ignore?

[chaoswolf]

It's hard for me. Even as I type, I am in tears because I've lost her. I'm currently hoping that she will come back to me, because I am marked by her & the dieties that we were meant for each other. It is impossible for me to be at peace while she is still figuring this out.