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chaoswolfOK. I've had it. I've had enough! I don't give a fucking damn any longer. I swear to the 7 gods that all they want to do is see me to hell and show me the door. I give a damn about those I love, but this has gone on long enough! Emmy's been whining ever since Connie left. I've been mildly depressed for like 4 seconds after I got off of Skype with ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
asahoshi until I started gaming with Mayhem. When she left, I got depressed again. When Emmy came downstairs during the tail end of the episode Without A Trace, she started whining. I didn't say anything at first. When Emmy continued whining at Mom, I got pissed off. I told them both to shut the fuck up so I could watch the show. I was not amused. I was pissed off at my mother for snapping at my sister and my sister for snapping at my mom, pissed off at both of them for disrupting the show! DAMNIT!!!!!!! Mom gets pissed off, breaks into tears and leaves. Then mdlbear comes outside into the living room, and bitches at me for snapping at Mom. Mom believes me to be disrespectful. I admit, I may have over-reacted, but I seriously wanted to watch the show. I seriously regret my actions as of just now, and I wish I never have to go through this. Unfortunatly, I don't know what I can do about it. I seriously don't.....and now I seemed to have backed myself into a corner that I am not sure I can get out of. Depression hit me kind of hard. I feel that my life is just one big mistake. Certian parts of it seem to be the patch I need in order to make my life work. asahoshi is one of those patches. Most of my life is a mistake. I have made one of the biggest errors in my life.....and now I regret it.
asahoshi until I started gaming with Mayhem. When she left, I got depressed again. When Emmy came downstairs during the tail end of the episode Without A Trace, she started whining. I didn't say anything at first. When Emmy continued whining at Mom, I got pissed off. I told them both to shut the fuck up so I could watch the show. I was not amused. I was pissed off at my mother for snapping at my sister and my sister for snapping at my mom, pissed off at both of them for disrupting the show! DAMNIT!!!!!!! Mom gets pissed off, breaks into tears and leaves. Then mdlbear comes outside into the living room, and bitches at me for snapping at Mom. Mom believes me to be disrespectful. I admit, I may have over-reacted, but I seriously wanted to watch the show. I seriously regret my actions as of just now, and I wish I never have to go through this. Unfortunatly, I don't know what I can do about it. I seriously don't.....and now I seemed to have backed myself into a corner that I am not sure I can get out of. Depression hit me kind of hard. I feel that my life is just one big mistake. Certian parts of it seem to be the patch I need in order to make my life work. asahoshi is one of those patches. Most of my life is a mistake. I have made one of the biggest errors in my life.....and now I regret it.
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Re: And now for the side against...
Date: 2004-12-12 11:27 am (UTC)Re: And now for the side against...
Date: 2004-12-12 12:52 pm (UTC)Not just medicine, but other kinds of outside help. The medical field is there for a reason. ^_^; I think Chaos should at least try it for a bit before going off on her own.
I suspect clinical depression or the like because it hasn't gone away as she's gotten older...so it's clearly not just adolescence.
I also see her doing and saying things to get attention, to get help. This is my way of helping. I've had the experience of absolutely NOT being able to make it on my own (friends or no). No amount of support can change a person's chemistry. I also firmly believe that medicine and therapy can help a person not only survive, but THRIVE. And that's what we want Chaos to do. :)