chaoswolf

I think I should warn you, this is a metaphysical post about things that probably don't exist in the first place. Descretion advised.

If the answer is yes, please click behind the cut. I have been a student of metaphysical studies for many years now, and I have been fine with most of it. Unfortunatly, I have been seeing things recently that have been frightening me. I have seen an acquisition of a fellow student who winds up becomming my closest friend, a situation where I am possibly the only one who can save her life. In essence, it will mean life or death. I am not amused by this, but what else can I do? Is this just the way of things? In the words of Steven Barnes' characters Kai & Aiden from the book Lion's Blood: Insh' Allah meaning "If It Is God's Will." I am afraid of this because I also saw another vision where I lose a friend (possibly the same one from the previous vision) in a bloody accident of some sort. I can't tell who it is or what type of accident, but I know it will be painful.

Note: Aliases are used here to conceal identities.
Tonight was a night like any other at first, I came home & did my chores, helping to get the living room picked up to the point where it was workable for our Wed night gatherings. I went to go get my cards around 1930something when Ironclaw showed up and wanted to play a game of magic. I said yes, but after 1 game he started to have a panic attack. This is when Trixy took him outside and talked with him. I waited for about 5 minutes, then went outside myself to try and help. Apparently I walked in at a bad time, and Hopalong shows up, trying to figure out what is going on. Trixy manages to calmly tell him to back off while I snapped & went slightly feral. I released a side I never hoped to release, even if only for a few seconds. Hopalong went back inside and I dropped to my knees, the cold from the weather combined with my brief moment of shock caused me to go back inside. Explained to Hopalong that it wasn't anything personal and that orders from Gaia and the others dictate things unforseen. I play a quick round of Magic with Trixy, then after cuddle up next to her. I remain in her arms for a few minutes, and according to her I was "out of it" for a few minutes. My breathing slowed slightly, I didn't seem to hear her while I was in that state, and I was not reacting to anything she did. This I heard after I came back into the world of reality. In that state, I saw the same vision of a friend dying in an accident of some sort....and it scared me. I don't know who it is, or what the reason is, or anything. Destiny is a bitch. And so am I.