You know....

[chaoswolf]

I know you all hate seeing these kinds of posts in my LJ. I really know that you hate watching me rant. This is just in general. I hate college. It bites. It is a waste of time and money, and I'm currently unemployed. I want to learn to drive. I want to get a job. I want to not go to school...I seriously don't feel I'm getting anywhere with it. I think that those are pretty fair requests, don't you?

Jobs = good thing. Money = good thing. Being broke & unable to drive = bad thing. Having parents insisting you go to college dispite you hate it = even worse. Fuck it all!!!!! I dispise college with a passion. I dispise having to deal with perfectionist teachers who fail to appreciate the essays that I turn in. Dispite the fact that they are slightly different from what they wanted, they capture the essence of the characters from the story. I am ready to blow it all to hell, and I can't because my mother's being an anal bitch about it. No offense intended, but I don't believe she understands how I feel. I don't think she cares how I feel. I don't think she wishes me to leave college at all, and I believe she doesn't notice the fact that it's making me more depressed.

Fuck it all. Fuck it all. Fuck it all. Fuck it all.

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[chaoswolf]

Is too.

Major? What's that? I'm thinking English, but I seriously doubt I can get it since my grades suck rocks. What I want to do with my life: not a fucking clue. Nothing, right now.

Frustration is dealing with assholes. I understand this, and my parents are acting like assholes.

College experience can kiss my tail. I don't think that getting to an "away" school will do me a lick of good, and my GPA stinks.

Anything that looks remotely interesting, eh..? Not happening. Nothing sems to be catching my interests right now.

You need a plan

[capplor.livejournal.com]

Brainstorm something -- even slackers have needs/wants.

At a minimum, you want NOT to be beholden to your parents so you can be treated as an adult. The way to do this is to have a paying job, one that pays well enough to have your OWN living space and takes care of whatever you decide your needs are. That can be difficult without paying some kind of major dues, either a college education or some serious dedication to working up job skills. You need SOMETHING to sell to get your own money.

However, this does not happen by itself. You need to make it happen, especially if you do not want to go the college route.

My mother was also adamant that all her children should be college graduates. This fit in with my own plans & talents, but was not what my younger sister wanted. So she explored alternatives on her own, and THEN presented a complete plan to my parents. Mom was not real thrilled about it, but my sister was very clear on what she wanted to do (chef's school), when & where she would implement it (Culinary Institute of America, Pittsburgh, over about 3 years time), and how she would pay for it (student loans and a year's internship where she would draw a salary, not to mention after a while catering on the side).

"I don't like college; let me stop" will not convince your parents. A clear alternative might.

[figmo.livejournal.com]

This is where I had a distinct advantage over you. I knew from the time I was 17 I wanted to be a broadcast journalist. The hard part was figuring out how to get there.

If nothing is catching your interests, I'd say part of your problem is your meds need to be adjusted. That sounds like depression (BTDT). I know you've been having problems with meds getting balanced.

If you drop out of college, unless you've got a highly specialized skill some employer wants (and sorry, but I don't think you do -- very few folks do), you'll be cursed to a life of low-paying jobs and will never be able to comfortably support yourself. That's reality.

I've seen what a college education and degree can do firsthand, and more than once. When I was born my parents and I had to live with Dad's parents because my folks couldn't afford a place of their own. Dad was in college; Mom was a high school grad who barely graduated. When Dad got his DDS degree he and Mom were able to buy a house within a year. My brother and I both got to go to private schools. Mom stopped working because we no longer needed her near-minimum-wage income.

With a college education I was able to break into high tech because I had a quirky set of specialized skills some employers wanted. I didn't have a degree for many years, though, and that kept me from many jobs. Once I had my BA, all of a sudden companies that wouldn't even look at me were begging me to interview. My annual income shot up $10k in one year. I'd be lying through my teeth if I told you I used anything I learned at San Jose State at work, but just having that stupid degree made life soooo much easier.

There's a lot of bullsh*t in college. I hated going to school most of the time. OTOH, I knew exactly why I was going. My goals were to make more money, get more money-making opportunities, and possibly even get into broadcast journalism as a career. I've even done all of that.

Having a degree even in basket-weaving opens more doors for you than not having one at all. I'm not saying you shouldn't work; if anything, I found I did better in my classes when I had a job outside of work. When school pissed me off I could vent about it at work. When work pissed me off I could vent about it at school. When family pissed me off I could vent about them at both places. The tough part, though, is your chances of getting a good job without either a highly specialized skill or talent or a degree of some kind are slim, especially in this economy.