Politics, school & blah.

[chaoswolf]

Politics (Please bear with me, this is what I think): Political BushShit is not an issue. No. It's Schwartz-his-nigger I'm annoyed at now. The bond measures he wants passed finally passed. Damn his reputation, damn his movie fame. They only gave him the CA governor position because he's the fucking Terminator! No offense to any movie fame nuts out there, but it's only the fact that he's a fuckin' Austrian Movie Star asshole that got him the position.

De Anza In A Nutshell: part II. This seems to be twicky. I have a paper due on Monday. The outline is due tomorrow, and the rough draft is due Thursday. This means I'm supposed to find the time during the Con to work on my essay. Easiest way I can think to do it is to run around & take a few pics of the concerts while bringing my laptop so I can place the pics on the web while working on my essay.

Blah: Damn this accursed depression. Is it just because I'm in love with someone I probably will never have again? Is it just because I'm doomed for eternity and unable to do shit about it? Is it because I'm in a neverending fucking cycle of find love-lose love-love dies forever? I admit: Mayhem is my local squeeze. I admit I love her. I admit I'm in love with asahoshi, but I also admit I may never see her again. The possibility does exist. I'm not sure what the fuck to do about it or even if this portion of our lives can be changed. I just feel that there is absolutely nothing in hell I can do about it and it pisses me off.

A thank you to the guys netolu, jet_crush and wolfshighpriest for helping me avoid the suicidal nature I've been struggling with the last few days....

Comments

[mdlbear]

Hey, at least you're finding love occasionally. I was more-or-less constantly lonely in both high school and most of college. Of course, I'm also often slow to take a hint.

[chaoswolf]

You mean hints like "You're going to produce that album right, Steve?" BTW, just as a heads up: Maya put a blurb in the TM section of the program to bug Steve about his album.

hang in there

[asahoshi.livejournal.com]

i promise you, i will be down there this summer. my dad promised at if i do go in school, he'd fund a ticket down there. so, you will see me again, if not this month, then this summer. i love you.

[wolfshighpriest.livejournal.com]

*envious of chaoswolf, as usual*
At least you're in the middle, not at one of the ends . . .
I don't know what Mayhem's notion of the whole thing is, but I'm not overly fond of it myself *bitching, complaining, being an asshole* . . .
I'm sorry, I'll shut up.