Talk about drama....one hell of a week.

[chaoswolf]

A'right, folks. Remember in my post yesterday where I said it was not a job to be taken lightly? The group and myself sat down and had a very long discussion about who was in shit with who, and I was mediating this thing with my stress level spiking FUBAR. It wasn't good....but when you're trying to play the "sane" force in a seemingly endless drama between your friends, it's not easy and it does hurt, contrary to popular belief. In some cases, one could just back down and lose the friends they've got. In others, you have to grin & bear it as you attempt to navigate troubled waters without any inclination as to where you're going. I don't like it, but who said I had a choice? I am Colleen's kid, after all....

Being the daughter of an empath has its advantages and its drawbacks. +: It allows me to maintain a somewhat tighter focus on myself and goals, also allowing me to mediate random arguments between friends. -: I pick up on everything. No emotion gets past me unless I'm truly being a space case. I will feel it and be affected somehow by it, whether it's in karma that is going to bite me later or if it's already hit me and I didn't notice.

I will be figuring out the other merits and flaws of school as I go along, I guess. Not much else to say now. Will write on Coronet & the Golden Bough concert later tonight.

Comments

[johno.livejournal.com]

"I pick up on everything. No emotion gets past me"

Dangerous, dangerous, dangerous....

"I was mediating this thing"

You need to learn how to shield yourself. If you let everything in, especially in a situation like that. You will tear yourself to shreds.

If you are a immersive, shield your interior and let the emotions wash over you, but not touch you.

If you are focused, open the shields a fraction, so you can see who you are focused on.

[chaoswolf]

Try to. It's not always a course of action that works....but I try.