Methinks I'm depressed.

I haven't known her that long, but I feel like I've known her longer than I have. It's wierd...I was thinking about all the times she's showed up, our interesting conversations about political matters, our gaming talks, our lives, our issues. I knew this was comming for her based off of everything Phil had mentioned in the months leading up to this. I knew that it would soon be the end for her, but I also knew that there was nothing I could've done to save her. I feel guilty. Not guilty in the way that one would feel in court after being convicted, but guilty like I couldn't do anything about it. I know it's not my fault. I know there's nothing I could've done. Now....I'm thinking about adding a website to our In Memoriam list.....I'll talk to Phil about writing up a memorial website, then talk to mdlbear about putting it on the list with everything else.

I knew that flower_cat and jilara have gone through a lot of SCA related deaths recently. I knew that hearing about this one wouldn't suprise mom in the least. I knew that the only reason why she almost tore my head off so to say is because this was the last thing she wanted me to have said. There's nothing we can do now except offer Phil a place to hide, our wishes and our prayers for him not going insane.

Rest in peace, Michelle. May flights of angels sing thee to thy rest.
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"I'm not afraid of Death. I'm afraid of who I'll hurt when I'm gone."
---Dragon Brujah/Archmage, son of the White Gambit