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chaoswolf ([personal profile] chaoswolf) wrote2005-11-30 11:28 pm

So....

If I am not allowed to do anything stupid, and I'm not allowed to be depressed, and I'm not allowed to try demanding answers from my ex, what am I allowed to do?

I am so fucking confused right now. I can't make heads or tails of my life....and right now I could use some help putting my life back together. Feelings for [livejournal.com profile] mira_fastfire have started to resurface after last weekend, and I'm currently confused by Mayhem & [livejournal.com profile] falconoflight as to where my relationships will go.

To make matters worse, I'm having a nasty allergic reaction to wellbutrin, and I'm going to get treated tomorrow, hopefully. Failing this...grr.

You're allowed to be depressed

[identity profile] capplor.livejournal.com 2005-12-01 04:16 pm (UTC)(link)
It probably is not wise to let yourself be ***DEPRESSED***

Other than punctuation? It's the difference between being unhappy about your current situation and being majorly mentally ill, unable to function, and not believing that things can ever get better. You have reasons to be unhappy, and they are valid reasons. However you have no reasons (and I have doubts on whether there are ever any real reasons) to assume things won't get better eventually, somehow, or that there is nothing that can bring you pleasure at the moment. That doesn't necessarilly mean getting back together with person A, B, or C. It means maybe finding someone else, or maybe someTHING else, that makes you enjoy your life. There's a whole world out there, after all.
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Re: You're allowed to be depressed

[personal profile] kshandra 2005-12-01 08:03 pm (UTC)(link)
It means maybe finding someone else, or maybe someTHING else, that makes you enjoy your life.

Note the emphasis on "someTHING else" there, Katy. Because otherwise you'll just fall into the same pattern again - meet someone new, start shaping your life around zir, and if (or more likely when) something happens to separate you and this new person, you're going to wind up in this same pit of despair all over again. And that's a lousy (and dare I say stupid) way to live your life. And I'm biting my own tail by calling it stupid...because I did it myself for years. No longer. Ultimately, the only person who can - or should - be responsible for my happiness is me.