Happens all the time. Is it just me?

[chaoswolf]

Or is it my imagination? Seems to happen every time: I fall in love, extended period of time passes before I see them again, and it seems like a lot longer than it actually is. Why does this happen? Is it just me? Is it my bad luck?

Another thing, what is it about me that makes people hate me? I don't think I'm a terrible person...Kyrethia's mother hates me, and has never met me. Her friend David has met me once, and doesn't like me either. What is it about me that causes such unrest with people? I don't get it. A snowball has a better shot at becomming friends with these types of people than I ever have.

Another energy-based rambling.
Redemption. Is it really worth it? Why this much pain? Why can't I die just once and stay there? Comming back is good because it gives me another chance to live, but why tourment my soul? You threw me here because of a simple misunderstanding. You don't understand. You haven't understood. Since time began, you have been the masters/mistresses of the universe. I understand this. And 42 is not the answer. What is it that causes souls such as myself and Kyrethia to continue the cycle of death and rebirth? We have fallen from your good graces because of a misunderstanding. What will it take to clear this up? When will we be at peace? Why must this endless cycle of pain, strife, death and destruction be continued through our eternal suffering? Is Redemption worth this price? Gods have mercy on our souls if we decide not....Redemption...I want to be Redeemed....though...Redemption......

Comments

[drewkitty.livejournal.com]

I can't speak to the former. As for the latter, I can't promise that this answer will satisfy you, or make sense. It is worth exactly what you paid for it, i.e. zero.

1) Suffering and death are inescapable facts of existence. "Master, how do I escape the tyranny of needing to wear clothes and eat? . . . I do not know. Get up, get dressed and we'll discuss it over breakfast." There *is* something beyond suffering and death, however.

2) Bushido saying: "If you meet [the Buddha] on the road, kill him!" (Or any other creature that puts on the mask of divinity . . . if divine, they cannot be hurt. If not, they have already demonstrated their intent to harm you through deception.)

[jilara.livejournal.com]

People who hate (or just dislike) on so little basis are not worth the trouble of association.

A lot of people are *afraid* of me, not just on first impression, but sometimes even after years. *I* don't think I'm scary, or bear them any ill will, so one wonders what causes this. I think the reactions could be similar. We're not compatible with something in their comfort zone/worldview.