School

[chaoswolf]

rockstar_ember: You're welcome. *sigh* Wasn't easy.

My thoughts now dwell on falconoflight & shadowwolf171. 2 days ago, I admitted to Laura that I had a crush on her. Taking a quote from one of my acquaintences "A crush is still a crush, no matter how small." This holds true for anyone, alas. In addition, I started having negative flashbacks of my last ex b/f I had for longer than a year. The pressure to take birth control, the near-traumatic experience I had to go through with pregnancy testing...not fun. Decided to go lesbian for a while to get away from that sort of pressure. I thought I was mostly over the trauma. As the relationship with Evan has shown me, I am not over it yet. The reason why we hadn't made out or had sex is because of my incapacity to see beyond the birth control problem from my previous experience. I was still scarred from it, and this prompted a very long discussion that lasted for 3 hours. We had dinner, and finished the conversation in his car before we left Burger King. We are still friends, though now....it leaves new windows open to me. I'm still a bit afraid about what is to become of my still-contemplated question that I asked Laura....and it is that answer that frightens me now. I shouldn't be too eager to start a relationship. Though for some reason....if it works, awesome. If it doesn't.....well....let's just say I'm going to be fighting with the depression demons again. She's the only female on campus I have intimate feelings for. Everyone else, no offense to you who are reading this: I like you as friends, but not in that way.

Comments

[roaringmouse.livejournal.com]

Birth Control issue is not only with straights but with AIDS and other sexual diseases, you knew to think about in a gay relationship. Taking the pill or using the patch is no problem. Talk to your GYn So says Mommy Mouse

[chaoswolf]

I was too young to go through that. You found out about it months later, because I didn't say anything until I had a girlfriend.

[roaringmouse.livejournal.com]

You are old enough NOW!!! silly ole wolf