Damn.

Apr. 27th, 2005 01:02 pm
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OK. Life's a bitch. Then you die.

Point A: Birth Kick Maximum Ass & Party lots Point B: Death

Yesterday, I found out that the Klodah necklace Mayhem gave me was broken. Today, I broke up with her. Coincidence? Probably not. I wish whoever created this year would kindly take it back. I thought somehow in the depths of my mind, there was a possibility of making everything work, and that we wouldn't lose some of the best fannish folks we had. I wasn't planning on my guitar's namesake to go to the hospital. I wasn't planning on trying to start a relationship with someone from my fencing class who is possibly looking at one of her own co-workers. I wasn't planning on anything to happen.

Still, I must look at life and not at my relationship patterns. Admittantly, lovers I found at cons ([livejournal.com profile] mira_fastfire, [livejournal.com profile] emp42ress, and [livejournal.com profile] asahoshi ended on notes that were not terribly pleasant, but are now at peace. Lovers I find at school (Mayhem, Anne Owen) seem to deteriorate over time. Contact is impossible, time schedules conflict, etc. This was the straw that broke the camel's back, shall we say. I decided that I was beginning to see Mayhem as more of a sisterly figure than as a lover. Had to go for a walk to absorb the possible consequences of my actions. Good news: There aren't any negative consequences. Bad news (or not, depending on how you look at it): To quote Austin Powers from the 2nd movie: "Wait a tick...that means I'm single again! Oh behave!"

As Uncle Phil said: "This means you can play the field."

Date: 2005-04-28 05:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mira-fastfire.livejournal.com
The last time I was single lasted for...uhm...four days? Maybe? It was over two years ago...

Still, I hear that being single isn't all bad.

In your place? I'd keep myself open to whatever stumbled my way, but wouldn't actively seek a relationship out. You still have a lot of healing and sorting to do, remember? Sometimes that's best done "alone."

Take care, 'kay?

Date: 2005-04-28 10:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mira-fastfire.livejournal.com
Old wounds? Like..uhm...which? It may just be that they didn't heal on the inside yet. Like a really really deep cut, which heals on the outside, but takes forEVER to heal on the inside. Y'now?

I dunno. Babblebabble. -.-

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