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Emotions and other babblings
Apr. 28th, 2005 07:31 pmStuff about FurCon: ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
mooglepower has fired off an email to figmo about a concert.
Stuff about school: Hated it today. Accidentally lost my temper at someone, and managed to apologize before the end of fencing. Went to strength development..the rest of my day is too depressing for me to type.
Creativity: So I dropped my ART 4A class because the professor is a bitch and tells me 3 weeks into the quarter that I'm failing. I thought I was doing a damned good job of it and just needed a little extra talent. No...the prof thinks I'm "different" and "not progressing." I think she just didn't like me. Another reason why creativity is a bad thing is because I still haven't began writing something for Gambit's Dominion that I think would work forasahoshi to go with.
Love: What is it? Really. I have had it described to me numbers of times.asahoshi and I were talking on the phone earlier and couldn't talk about much of anything because our relationship ended when I made that choice to do what I have done. Was reading the comments mira_fastfire left on my last LJ post, and started to realize why I've been depressed at certain cons. I still have feelings for her. "The possibility of the two of us getting back together still exists" I remember her saying. I don't recall when I heard her say this, nor do I remember anything else from that discussion. I think that chance is next to zero, but that's probably just me. Theoretically, it shouldn't hurt me as much as it does. For whatever reason, it does hurt in more painful ways than can be described. The break up with Mayhem didn't really help much either.
Family: To a point, I will be glad when I move out. Currently considering options for potential summer employment, and realizing very slowly that my sister though she is family, is not a punching bag. She threw a fit yesterday that lasted for almost 3 hours I think, based solely on the principle that the gamers said "You stink and you are not permitted to game with us until you have showered." This caused her to get upset and riled, and once I move out I won't be living with this type of shit any longer.
Employment: See above. Looking. Need to look harder, and start applying places next week. Hell, I may even start at the Recycled Book Store on Alemeda & Race by next week, if I'm lucky.
Contact: I am still contactable by email, cell phone and Instant Message programs. I haven't been IRCing much recently because I haven't been in the mood to do so.
Ending rants now as I go eat......
mooglepower has fired off an email to figmo about a concert.Stuff about school: Hated it today. Accidentally lost my temper at someone, and managed to apologize before the end of fencing. Went to strength development..the rest of my day is too depressing for me to type.
Creativity: So I dropped my ART 4A class because the professor is a bitch and tells me 3 weeks into the quarter that I'm failing. I thought I was doing a damned good job of it and just needed a little extra talent. No...the prof thinks I'm "different" and "not progressing." I think she just didn't like me. Another reason why creativity is a bad thing is because I still haven't began writing something for Gambit's Dominion that I think would work for
asahoshi to go with.Love: What is it? Really. I have had it described to me numbers of times.
asahoshi and I were talking on the phone earlier and couldn't talk about much of anything because our relationship ended when I made that choice to do what I have done. Was reading the comments mira_fastfire left on my last LJ post, and started to realize why I've been depressed at certain cons. I still have feelings for her. "The possibility of the two of us getting back together still exists" I remember her saying. I don't recall when I heard her say this, nor do I remember anything else from that discussion. I think that chance is next to zero, but that's probably just me. Theoretically, it shouldn't hurt me as much as it does. For whatever reason, it does hurt in more painful ways than can be described. The break up with Mayhem didn't really help much either.Family: To a point, I will be glad when I move out. Currently considering options for potential summer employment, and realizing very slowly that my sister though she is family, is not a punching bag. She threw a fit yesterday that lasted for almost 3 hours I think, based solely on the principle that the gamers said "You stink and you are not permitted to game with us until you have showered." This caused her to get upset and riled, and once I move out I won't be living with this type of shit any longer.
Employment: See above. Looking. Need to look harder, and start applying places next week. Hell, I may even start at the Recycled Book Store on Alemeda & Race by next week, if I'm lucky.
Contact: I am still contactable by email, cell phone and Instant Message programs. I haven't been IRCing much recently because I haven't been in the mood to do so.
Ending rants now as I go eat......
