Do I want to see tomorrow?

I'm not sure if I want to see it. I kinda have to because I have a test...but really don't want to deal with tomorrow. There's this problem I have with Mayhem....I'm not sure how to tell her that she's spending more time with Paladin.....and then there's asahoshi spending time with drakk_draconian plus the fact that Steph (danica's sister) jumps on the computer every chance she gets.

I'm not sure how to deal with this shit anymore. I'm on the verge of either going single or going mundane, and I don't know which is worse...*sigh* Gods, my life bites.............

EDIT (2132): the conversation ends, and my voice breaks 4 times before I can manage to say "I love you". Is this a sign of some sort that our relationship might end or is this only my imagination telling me that I'm a loser? I haven't felt the connection for a while, so it seems almost impossible for me to manage the words....I threw the phone to the bed, then picked it up & threw it to the floor on the other side of the room near my door. It didn't hit my door, but now I'm not sure if love exists. I'm probably going to write a new piece for chaoswolf.org based on this thought that it doesn't exist....I hate when my inspiration is always negative...