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Uncertainty
Oct. 9th, 2004 11:25 pmUncertainty is something that no one is ever sure what to do with. It's like...you're sure of something & unsure of something else. Everyone's been there, right? I'm in that state right now. I don't know what's going on in Washington....I heard 3rd hand information that ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
asahoshi wasn't doing well in school, which could be inaccurate...but at the same time it just may be the truth. The reason why I don't know what to believe is because in all the times I've talked to her thus far, this subject has never come up. I tell her about my problems at school all the time, but she never seems to talk about hers much. This could be for any number of reasons, but I'm not going to push the issue. I just want to know the truth so I know what to expect after finals.
Uncertainty is something that annoys me day by day. I try not to call up to WA and plauge Danica's answering machine with messages or get her parents mad at me. I like Skype, and I wish I could use it a bit more frequently. OTOH, because of the fact that she hangs out withdrakk_draconian whenever she's not babbling @ me or dealing with school...I'm uncertain if she even gets the messages I leave with her parents & so on. None of my messages seem to get through unless I post something here that say "send me an email" or "call me" or something like that. It gets annoying. I also have the uncertainty of how our relationship is doing: I have bad days & try to get online after I do my homework/chores, and when I need her to be there...she isn't. Is this because of her parents or because of Jason? I don't know, and frankly I don't have a clue. A clue is a nice thing to have once in a while, though.....and I admit the fact that when Danica's had bad days I haven't been there, but primarily that's because of my T/Th schedule where I don't get home until almost 1830 due to my afternoon class.
So my next major question: how am I to know if I'm going up there for Babbages' or not? Am I going to get an email/phone call/skype message that says in no uncertain terms that something has gone wrong this semester or am I going to get one of the above formats that says "Let's have fun for 2 weeks"? This is the question that's now been on my mind for the last few weeks, and I'm just hoping that it's the latter rather than the former. If it is the former.....I still love you, but I'll be mildly annoyed at the fact I will have to wait longer before seeing you again.
asahoshi wasn't doing well in school, which could be inaccurate...but at the same time it just may be the truth. The reason why I don't know what to believe is because in all the times I've talked to her thus far, this subject has never come up. I tell her about my problems at school all the time, but she never seems to talk about hers much. This could be for any number of reasons, but I'm not going to push the issue. I just want to know the truth so I know what to expect after finals.Uncertainty is something that annoys me day by day. I try not to call up to WA and plauge Danica's answering machine with messages or get her parents mad at me. I like Skype, and I wish I could use it a bit more frequently. OTOH, because of the fact that she hangs out with
drakk_draconian whenever she's not babbling @ me or dealing with school...I'm uncertain if she even gets the messages I leave with her parents & so on. None of my messages seem to get through unless I post something here that say "send me an email" or "call me" or something like that. It gets annoying. I also have the uncertainty of how our relationship is doing: I have bad days & try to get online after I do my homework/chores, and when I need her to be there...she isn't. Is this because of her parents or because of Jason? I don't know, and frankly I don't have a clue. A clue is a nice thing to have once in a while, though.....and I admit the fact that when Danica's had bad days I haven't been there, but primarily that's because of my T/Th schedule where I don't get home until almost 1830 due to my afternoon class. So my next major question: how am I to know if I'm going up there for Babbages' or not? Am I going to get an email/phone call/skype message that says in no uncertain terms that something has gone wrong this semester or am I going to get one of the above formats that says "Let's have fun for 2 weeks"? This is the question that's now been on my mind for the last few weeks, and I'm just hoping that it's the latter rather than the former. If it is the former.....I still love you, but I'll be mildly annoyed at the fact I will have to wait longer before seeing you again.
