Another day

[chaoswolf]

Another misery. It seems like life is ending. My friends have all disappeared, all turned their backs on me. I've got few left now, and I thank spiffy_gal for being one of the only 4 people who haven't completly abandoned me. I seriously need to get a life. I seriously need to get out of depression.

I think one of the reasons why I'm like this is because I do not feel that I have the strength to live. I do not feel that suicide is tempting, though I do feel that school holds no meaning. I'm going to try getting a job @ the campus bookstore next quarter so I can somehow drown out my pain with work and scshool. I'm going to see how the time plays out.

Apparently, phantomdancing is taking me to see Narnia tonight. karadurzero hasn't been online for me to talk to in a few days, and I need to babble in his ear about a decision I'm making. grendies has yet to hint to me what sort of relationship he's looking for, but I can guess...For now I'll be quiet. It's going to be interesting somehow.

More to come about my boring academic schedule once I figure it out. Still need to register for stuff.....bye!

Comments

[figmo.livejournal.com]

School often has no meaning.

You're also hitting finals, IIRC.

Add the two to your recent breakup and of course you feel like crap. DUH!

Hang in there; things do get better.

[dopple.livejournal.com]

now...now; I've not abandoned you...I just only see you maybe once a year is all.

[gottaspiffy.livejournal.com]

I just don't see you around anymore. However I do think the job idea is good. While it may not allow you to drown your depressions, work that requires very little thought, such as the bookstore, will give you oppertunities to look at things in your life and maybe see them from a new perspective that would help things seem not so bad.

I know it hurts terribly when you feel like everything is going your way and then it gets scattered to the wind. Just know, coming from someone who has been there, you can survive it and become a stronger happier person for it. It just won't happen over night. I think you can do it.