"So, Chaos. What's been happening?"
Nov. 22nd, 2005 04:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chaoswolfFirstly, before I answer that, let's have some fun. Happy birthday, ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
tesstheredpony and akseawolf! And a happy b-day to dopple, wolfshighpriest and flaim, since I'm probably not going to be online during those days at all.
Me: I've been dealing with my issues. I think I've stopped with the dependency thing, since I've not been really in her presence for several days. I've been in the same room, yes. But only because it's warm, at the moment. Admittantly, it will be much warmer in her arms, but...I have a 90ish% probability she'll come back to me. I put high faith into the Gods, and in my heart. I am finally learning I hope, the virtue of patience. It seems like it, though I can't be sure. I have finally realized, I think...that focusing on the positive increases the likelyhood of it happening. If all you focus on is the negative, then you will never get anywhere and your life will draw to an unexpected close, death will come at the most unlikely time.
Some of you may be thinking: "Wow. Chaos learned to be an optimist!" No, I didn't. I learned that dwelling on the past often makes the present much more unbearable. I am still deeply affected by my feelings formira_fastfire, even though it's been 4 years since we broke up @ a LosCon.
Now, back to reality. I'm still feeling the deep affection forfalconoflight, yes. I still love her more than anything. I am still sure she's the one. I'm still going to the same school with her. I still have pictures of her on my computer. I'm still going to ask sharyse to draw that pretty Fallen Angel pic of her. And...I'm still going to talk to her on the 12th of December like I said I would.
Am seriously going to con this weekend. Should be fun. I don't know how much time I'll have, or what all is going to happen. I still have an extra membership available, so if you want it...Find me.
tesstheredpony and akseawolf! And a happy b-day to dopple, wolfshighpriest and flaim, since I'm probably not going to be online during those days at all.Me: I've been dealing with my issues. I think I've stopped with the dependency thing, since I've not been really in her presence for several days. I've been in the same room, yes. But only because it's warm, at the moment. Admittantly, it will be much warmer in her arms, but...I have a 90ish% probability she'll come back to me. I put high faith into the Gods, and in my heart. I am finally learning I hope, the virtue of patience. It seems like it, though I can't be sure. I have finally realized, I think...that focusing on the positive increases the likelyhood of it happening. If all you focus on is the negative, then you will never get anywhere and your life will draw to an unexpected close, death will come at the most unlikely time.
Some of you may be thinking: "Wow. Chaos learned to be an optimist!" No, I didn't. I learned that dwelling on the past often makes the present much more unbearable. I am still deeply affected by my feelings for
mira_fastfire, even though it's been 4 years since we broke up @ a LosCon.Now, back to reality. I'm still feeling the deep affection for
falconoflight, yes. I still love her more than anything. I am still sure she's the one. I'm still going to the same school with her. I still have pictures of her on my computer. I'm still going to ask sharyse to draw that pretty Fallen Angel pic of her. And...I'm still going to talk to her on the 12th of December like I said I would.Am seriously going to con this weekend. Should be fun. I don't know how much time I'll have, or what all is going to happen. I still have an extra membership available, so if you want it...Find me.
